Thank You

When I saw the video of Aiba's letter to Arashi it touches me and reminded me so much how much family and friends are important.  I would like to take this opportunity to thank my wonderful family, god sis and my princess.

Each of you have played a huge part and have contributed to what I am today.  Thank you for being there when I needed someone to cry with, be angry with ... but mostly for just being there when I was weak.  I still need each of you  :)

My Normality

Well, besides taking care of my dad during my dad's eye operation and taking care of my mum whenever she requires me to be around.

Basically ..... weekdays I'm at my mum's and weekends with Luisi but all of you already know that.

Anyways .............. its far tooooooo long to write on the small cutie events. However, I do have photos to show for it. Its in my facebook.

I spent time at Zan's place as she introduces some Japanese culture to me. Gosh!! Now I am sooooooooooooooooo into Arashi!! Oh no Zan!! What have you done :)

I am sooooooooooooo loving it!! Other than getting into Arashi I do tutor my nephew.

Shahrazad has been coming down to see me almost everyday whenever I am at Jurong East. That's nice of her. I am glad that we are closing the gap.

Enjoy viewing the photos ok :)

To Err is Human ......

To ERR is human, To FORGIVE is divine but to forget is close to impossible.

It is because we have this memory thingie .... which I sometimes hate it. If there was a pill that when you take it will permanently erase certain parts of your memory. I'll take it.

Can we really say that its possible to picked up where we left off and forget all that had happened?? Somehow ... I doubt it. This will be and have been different for those of us that have been affected by the events.

I am so on your side honey always. Though some may disagree to forgiving criminals. They fail to see that criminals are also human. There are self help groups. Though how far that has helped many. I don't know. However, after having said that we must find the courage to first face them and help them back to that road to normality.

To those who are reading this: This is Man's sister here. Enjoy life, try your best in all that you do. If you manage to mess things up a bit, just try to do better the next time around. .....right?? Ok back to the serious writer......

Luisi, Luisi .... wise words. But its towards that journey that its hard and treacherous.

Please believe me honey that though I am on your side I also want to see the other party to change for the better and not get worse right??

Anyways ... glad to know you are well and moving on. Best wishes for all your future endeavours. Do take care and rest assured that I am only a call away.

Revenge

Revenge - to exact punishment or expiation for a wrong on behalf of, esp. in a resentful or vindictive spirit: He revenged his murdered brother.

The only acceptable apology is a humble apology. There is only one truth. You are always being watched.

Watching Maou .... Can't imagine how this series have affected me so much. Is revenge right?? I've learn that revenge only feeds our ego. That we didn't do anything wrong after all the other party have wronged us. Why can't we wrong them??

Even if I "COULD" revenge this person with the law on my side and all the evidence at the tip of my fingers. All I want is for him to feel the same pain as I have.

As I said many times before the only thing good that came out of that was my relationship with my baby princess.

Gosh!! I pity your life dear .... you know you can always rely on me. I thank you for your frankness and for never having to keep secrets from me. I love you so much.

I think I am weak in so many ways..... yes the series have reflected on my past and so many things else that has happened in which I can't even bring myself to ever wanting to remember them.

I hate you so very much yet I do not have the heart to destroy your life as you have destroyed mine. However, PLEASE don't take my warning toooooooooo lightly. I am capable of changing my decision.

Maou

Maō ('The Devil'), is a Japanese remake of the Korean suspense drama series titled Ma Wang which aired on KBS in 2007. The drama stars Satoshi Ohno of Arashi and Toma Ikuta, both under the talent agency Johnny & Associates.

Synopsis

Ryo Naruse (Satoshi Ohno) is a two-faced lawyer: on the surface, he is a kind-hearted soul, representing the poor and earning the nickname "The Angelic Lawyer" from the press; but unbeknownst to anyone else, he is also a "devil," meticulously plotting the perfect revenge against those responsible for his younger brother's death. Naoto Serizawa (Toma Ikuta) is a gung-ho detective whose overzealous methods mask a dark past which he is trying to overcome. When a family acquaintance of Serizawa's is murdered, Serizawa is thrust in the middle of a multiple-homicide case which stirs up memories of a dark event from his past - and Naruse's.

Those of you who can get hold of the DVD copy of this series. .... Its a MUST watch!

Best Friends Forever

Hey I know we had a fall out like a million years ago and till this day I've no idea what went wrong. Not sure if you have forgiven me for my past sins. We are blood sisters and I sooooo do love you dearly.

Anyways ........... it was good to be speaking to you like a human being.

One of the worst day of my life happens to be the best day of my life. One day after my scope and was completely knocked out by the sedation. Ohno #1 is how I refer her these days. I've never seen any fan bigger than my sis. She is a number 1 Arashi fan and a bigger Ohno Satoshi fan.

She kindly picked me up from hospital and took me to her house. She cooked lunch for me and I rested at her house till night fall. While I was there I played with Shahrazad and Darian .... Gosh!! I miss them so much!!

On that day I too had a hair cut and now look almost like Shahrazad!! Whilst having a hair cut I was entertained by some Japanese program. Before going back home she loaned me a Japanese series to watch and roughly told me what it was about.

I told her ok. I'll watched it when I have the time at LP.

Space, Trust and Freedom

The three things most people want. ....

Space - the unlimited or incalculably great three-dimensional realm or expanse in which all material objects are located and all events occur. Our own personal space: if have we would treasure and if we have none we would crave for it.

A space where we can grow into it or grow with it as long as time would allow it. Deprivation of of our own space can make one feels almost like being in solitary confinement. ... ok maybe I am exaggerating just a little :)

Trust - reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. But how can we show one that we are anyone can be trusted?? Its our very actions and our past record that will bring us credit to our present character reference.

Trust is something that you earned ... not meet and say ... "I give you trust to do as you wish. Anything happens to you - you are not my responsibility ..."

As long as one NEVER fails to tell the truth. THAN ... there won't be any secrets will there!! In life sometimes and almost all the time - mutual trust is essential. If one is forever suspicious of every single action that the other party does and every single action has to be justified. ... after awhile one will get jaded of just plain living!!

Freedom - the power to determine action without restraint. But with freedom comes responsibility. Every decision we make .. we walk through the consequences of that decision and make us the person from those very action.

Its important to have supportive people around you can trust with your life be it a family, relative or friend. I find that listening plays a vital role in our life. So people LISTEN and change your mindset or you might find that you will soon loose the person closest to you.

Please be weary of the people you are with and people you socialise. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.

Its been Awhile

Everyone's been wondering where have I disappeared to. .... Hmmm don't worry am still around and surviving.

We will soon be entering the second week of November. Allot has happen since August. I promise all of you that I will update my blog soon. Well, maybe just the most significant events.

I thought for a moment all of you have forgotten ..... hee hee.

Ok just a short note to say hi and thanks for not forgetting.