Battle of The Wits

An outing with Jazzmann ..... hmmm .... after a long while it should be interesting. So we were all set for. I took half day on that day. Which exact date I'm not to sure. We all decided it was Vivo City .... since none of us have been there.







Well, since no seafood was being schedule or rather it was the lack of VITAMIN "M". So we ended up having a Chicken Rice and window shopping there. Thought of catching a movie .... but the queue seems endless and we soon gave up. BUT WE ALL WANT TO SEE A MOVIE!!



So Jazzmann aka Purpleheart aka Max his big idea was to ajourn to Bugis Junction. Well, it was easier to get tickets there. We didn't even know the title of the movie he picked.



Battle of The Wits ... it was a great movie with a sad ending and I had teary eyed coming out of the cinema.

Plot

In 370 B.C, China was separated as seven nations and several other small tribes, one of these being the city state of Liang. The nation of Zhao is led by the terrifying prime commander Xiang Yangzhong who orders his troops to launch an attack on Liang in a bid to conquer the small city.Leaping to the defence of the cowed people of Liang is a warrior who goes by the name of ‘Ge Li’ from the Mo-Tsu tribe, renowned for its defensive skills. He is their last hope as the terrors of Yangzhong’s troops are unleashed. The future of Liang now hangs in the balance, with all their hopes pinned on the mysterious Mo-Tsu warrior Ge Li…

Flames to Dust

Breakfast at Sentosa ... with peacocks roaming about!

Hmmm its easy for one to say - lets just be friends. Its not IMpossible I guess we just have to work at the "plutonic" part of the friendship. Look at the good points. Have a CLEAR state of mind "TO BURY THE PAST".

Though we may feel odd when the people you know are also the people he knows. Its quite hard to achieve that. .... Hhhhmmm I guess some of us are facing this. Hhmmmm .... Chomelanggun has been helpping me even when she knew I was with Jazzmann and comforting me whenever we have those ups.

Well ... after all she does know him LONGEST than any one "US" knew him. So before anyone of us have gone through the downs SHE already has.

People are always wondering how the two of us can become the best of friends. Hmmm ... sorry if I don't have an answer to that question. We just do! We've known each other for over two years now. ... and ... still going strong.

As for Jazzmann and I ..... erm ... well ... I guess we are both working hard at becoming the best of friends. I never regret anything I've gone through with him. The best thing that came out of this relationship is my dearest Baby Princess. She keeps me strong and going. Love you forever Princess :)

As the the song goes ..." ...why must all good things come to an end?" Well, fate is not in our hands. And besides ... not all endings are ugly.

NELLY FURTADO

"All Good Things (Come To An End)"

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

I'd Rather .....

There are many songs that I love and tooooo many favourites. This is one of them ..... it speaks the dilemma most of us face. Choosing partners - who do we REALLY choose in the end?? Should we choose one that can offer us all the comfort we want and yearn for?? OR ... Should we choose the "WRONG" one??

In my opinion .... its not just about making a list of the good and bad points. Or to see which list is longer. BUT to tick the ones we can tolerate. If there are any (which I'm sure there are) that we picked from the "bad" list is to sit and ponder how far can we tolerate his / her bad points.

Happiness can only reached when two hands are clapped in unison.

"I'd Rather"

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

by: LUTHER VANDROSS

Truth, Lies, Betrayal

HONESTY is the best Policy; people always say. But what are the consequences that follows ….. hmmmm … questions unanswered. So to play save what do people normally do?? They lie!!

The truth in you
I seek the truth in you
The weak lie is not you
So speak up, yes you

The truth hurts but it works
The truth simplifies and dignifies
The truth sooths preserving your youth

I ask the truth of you
Cry now, take a tissue
So speak up, yes you

The truth signifies and modifies
The truth is within and the best way to begin
The truth is a good start especially for sweethearts

I need the truth of you
Simply choose your venue
So speak up, yes you

The truth to any degree
Is a starting point to be free
Just like one and two make three
So speak up, yes you
If you agree

But through experience it’s more than often that it is the truth that lightens our burden and strengthens our beliefs in ourselves. In the process the truth may somewhat have the loneliness eating at us. As time wore on and our wings finally strengthen before we leave the loneliness and adapt to the environment or responsibility that keeps us going. Well, ONLY THE STRONGEST SURVIVE.

................ and only the WISEST of people, one so bold and lots of guts do one admit to truth to face the music. Even though we would always prefer to hear the truth from the horse's mouth than from someone else. Sad to say it is more than often that this is always the case.

Sooooooo ...........

So we start of with a "WHITE lie". Is there really such thing as a white lie?? Isn't it still a lie nevertheless?? You tell one small lie than you need to tell another to cover the other .... and where does it end?? WILL it ever end?? Hhmmm

One lie more to comfort oneself and in achieving in deceiving the other party to prevent THAT party from being hurt or seeing THAT person going through a depression period. Hhhhmmm though NO ONE really want to go through this but sometimes it seems that its inevitable. So it becomes that "HURT" is a process.

In the final analysis .... WE ARE ONLY LYING TO OURSELVES.

Lies
by Stanley Naber

Lies hurt more

than the truth

why do I live

in self pity

and expect disappointment

more then optimism

or does enjoyment

lead me to new

worlds which I can not

live on

the air is getting

thin and I want to

stay for some time

too bad I can not

live in my dreams

for then utopia would be

reached wouldn't it

Where does this lead to .......... betrayal! Conclusion??

Hence, knowledge of THE TRUTH is ALWAYS, ALWAYS, always the best because a lie would in the end cause more hurt than the truth. I never believe one can wear a mask for very long. One will eventually get tired of running and lying.

Betrayal

May
The wind is tossing the lilacs,

The new leaves laugh in the sun,

And the petals fall on the orchard wall,

But for me the spring is done.
Beneath the apple blossoms I go a wintry way,

For love that smiled in April Is false to me in May.

The poem below is by John Keats. I did it for literature when I was in school and loved what it meant.

La Belle Dame sans Merci

John Keats

Oh what can ail thee,

knight-at-arms,Alone and palely loitering?

The sedge has withered from the lake,And no birds sing.

Oh what can ail thee,

knight-at-arms,

So haggard and so woe-begone?

The squirrel's granary is full,

And the harvest's done.

I see a lily on thy brow,

With anguish moist and fever-dew,

And on thy cheeks a fading rose

Fast withereth too.

I met a lady in the meads,

Full beautiful - a faery's child,

Her hair was long,

her foot was light,

And her eyes were wild.

I made a garland for her head,

And bracelets too,

and fragrant zone;

She looked at me as she did love,

And made sweet moan.

I set her on my pacing steed,

And nothing else saw all day long,

For sidelong would she bend,

and sing

A faery's song.

She found me roots of relish sweet,

And honey wild,

and manna-dew,

And sure in language strange she said -'I love thee true'.

She took me to her elfin grot,

And there she wept and sighed full sore,

And there I shut her wild wild eyes

With kisses four.

And there she lulled me asleep

And there I dreamed - Ah! woe betide! -

The latest dream I ever dreamt

On the cold hill side.

I saw pale kings and princes too,

Pale warriors,

death-pale were they all;

They cried - 'La Belle Dame sans Merci

Hath thee in thrall!'

I saw their starved lips in the gloom,

With horrid warning gaped wide,

And I awoke and found me here,

On the cold hill's side.

And this is why I sojourn here

Alone and palely loitering,

Though the sedge is withered from the lake,

And no birds sing.

Our lives is what we make it to be. Happiness is a feeling that we create. Not seek BUT found in a treasure trove that lies within us. So be happy, smile always ..... and stay GOLD for as long as you can! :)

Stand by Me

Love Actually ..... hmmmm is there truly such a thing as PURE L.O.V.E

Several events that have happen of late that REALLY makes one think.

When I First Looked Into Your Eyes
When first I looked into your eye each breath became a thousand sighs.
My heart drummed out a thunder beat I glowed with joy from head to feet.
The hand of love had touched my soul,
as the bell of destiny began to toll.
The tide of love began to rise,
the world was filled with summer skies.
My sodden clouds of cold and grey glowed with gold, then wisped away.
A brilliant rainbow arched across,
as waves of love began to toss.
The air was filled with lovebird cries,
when I first looked into your eyes.
When I first looked into your eyes,
all time and space were paralyzed.....
And in that instant, I was shown a universe I had never known.
I dwell there still, in Paradise, when I look into your eyes.
- by Faith Mattke -

Jazzmann - the ONLY guy I truly loved. Someone that could make my heart beat stop and quicken at the same time. I still love you my Darling.

L.O.V.E - sacrifices, compromises, warmth to one's heart so happiness can be achieved.



The Truth

T.R.U.T.H - truth that comes with a price.

Say what you want Mean what you say
Remember the darkest Lights of that day
Be who you are Do as you please
The truth is going to Bring you to your knees
The truth is that That we all need
The truth is the end Of a mystery
The truth is out there You will see
The truth is out there For you and me
The truth is out there The search is not in vain
The truth is out there Out there in the rain
Say what you want But you better believe
The truth is a goal
We all must achieve

T.R.U.T.H - to know the truth may sometime hurt. Somehow, its best to know the truth than not at all no matter how much it hurt. In knowing the truth the consequences that follow would be .... for better or worse?? That would be up to us on how we look at it and act upon it.

F.R.E.E.D.O.M - come with responsibility

"We fight for the outer freedom.
We cry for the inner freedom.
With the outer freedom,
we see and rule the four corners of the globe.
With the inner freedom,
we see the Soul and become the Goal of the entire universe."

L.OY.A.L.T.Y - sacrifices.... AFTERMATH
Though this poem is written by someone else it shouts the words from my mind.

Aftermath I learnt to write to you in happier days,
And every letter was a piece I chipped From off my heart,
a fragment newly clipped From the mosaic of life;

its blues and grays,
Its throbbing reds, I gave to earn your praise.

To make a pavement for your feet I stripped My soul for you to walk upon,
and slipped Beneath your steps to soften all your ways.

But now my letters are like blossoms pale
We strew upon a grave with hopeless tears.
I ask no recompense, I shall not fail
Although you do not heed;
the long, sad times that was spent
Still pass, and still I scatter flowers frail,
And whisper words of love which no one hears.

by: Amy Lowell (1874 - 1925)

And after all these years I still love him so .... and my heart STILL lies with him. It is only now that I realise what the meaning of T.R.U.E LOVE. And it is ONLY now that he does show his LOVE. .... no matter how and what other people look at it.



One fine day .... my story will be told.

Love Is .....

Tracing back the steps when Jazzmann met me and love blossoms. Seems like so many years ago. Though its history ... looking back at the good times.

This blog is just dedicated to some of the SMSes (Short Message Services) that he sent me many years ago. From the time I knew he will be the ONLY one I love.

16102003 - This is when I decided that I love him truly and would sacrifice anything and everything for my one and only love....... besides my family offcourse.
16:48
91277279

I finally know why I had to live a life tainted with lonliness, its because you weren't in my life before. Now you are my inspiration and SAVIOUR....... YOU ARE AN ANGEL IN DISGUISE.



22022004 - This was the last message he sent me from this number...... as after this message he lost his handphone. A year after this incident when I finally met Chomelanggun - I found out that he gave it to her and NOT that he lost it. Whatever the story maybe its in the past as the ACTUAL truth only holds with the people directly involved.
22:23
90708417

On my way to AMK. so how was your day? Had dinner?
Had quite a busy day today. Visit a sick relative and had a talk with my ex and my daughter.
Appointment confirm on 2nd march at 10am till 2pm. I just slept for few hours before going to work at 3pm at Bishan. I'm going to sleep after my night shift paper work. Will call you later when I settle at AMK.

27022004 - This was sent on the way to see Princess for her medical appointment at Kandang Kerbau Hospital.
20:39
91917167

It might be a drop in the ocean but to me its like a "nila" that changes the whole concept from a faint heart to a ray of hope in life.
Thank you Dear.

02032004
09:29
91917167

Love means never having to say you are sorry. I understand. I know you love me deeply and so do I. Just take care for I will accept you the way you are even more.


02032004 - The first ever poem he sent me!! I never knew he could write poetry sooooo well!
10:25
91917167

Life has new meaning to me
Opening my eyes to see
The beauty that shines on me
The love in you I cherrish deeply.

Holding hands as we walk along the esplanade
My life you have mould and made
The beautiful words we said
May the Grace of God it doesn't fade.

Life is full of surprises!

02032004
11:31
91917167

Its a beautiful day today
The start of a new day
That brings together the softness of your heart
And the sweetness that you bring.

Our hearts leap with joy
Togetherness that we seek
May we become the ploy
In God's play as we speak.

I'm off with Anna after few hours of treatment
On the way to her home for comfort I shall give.
Thank you my dear for terms of endearment
May we love forever and forgive.

Take care sweetness will call you soon.

02032004
22:34
91917167

Very compassionate a person you are
that glows of softness that radiates from afar
Not many people can see the beauty in thee
You are truly God's gift for the world to see

Thank you my dear for the help that you give
My daughter Anna is grateful that she live
No amount of words that can be spoken
Just a prayer each day an appreciation as a token.

I'm on my way to work ......... AMK tonight.

05032004 - This was sent just few hours before he flew off to Kuala Lumpur for a working conference. It was only a year later that I found out he was there to meet Appleblossom.

06:31
91917167

ok. You take care too and don't skip meals ok? When I come back I want you to be fat and firm ready to be slaughtered ........ hee ........... hee

26042004 -
14:34
91917167

A beautiful person like you warmth the heart
Little things you do sets you apart.
People with loneliness and sad emotions you have taken
Indeed you are God's given soul from heaven.

26042004 -
14:39
91917167

Yes, I have a fever that won't go away
I guess my heart wants to stay on that day
Missing you so much when I say good bye
I wish my soul have wings so to you it will fly

27042004 -
09:58
91917167

My fever it seems is here to stay
The doctor gave me MC just for the day.
Going home now for a little rest
I guess that is the thing to do and its the best.

Its been a pleasure to kacau you early in the morning
I hope it makes your heart like a bird singing.
So I bid you good night my Sweet feline
May our relationship mellow through time.

11052004 - This was sent was sent in 2 parts. After 4 days of no word!! He tried to comfort me with poetry!!
06:19
91917167

Never will I forget that Friday afternoon
Waiting in anticipation the love that bloom
Its been days but it seem like so many years
Missing you so very, very much
And it still lingers.

Holding you in my arms again was a dream come true
So cute and petite you drive away my blues
The warmth that was lost creeps back into my heart
It was heaven my dear I wish we never part.

The places that we go and the things that we do
Reminds me that my life will be empty without you
The feelings that I felt till now so vivid and clear
How I miss you my dear I wish you were here.

I bid you farewell that night but not for long
Take it like the pass of time of one single song
Feel our love through time as much as we want
May one day our hearts and soul will be as one.

Miss you ALWAYZZZZ

Sweet memories...

Forever Friends

January 13th ...

Few days earlier a little Tikus let out word that there's a new club that's just open and a party was held for the below 18. Sounds great! Time and venue was set. Princess and company ... Hotty, Princess and myself went from home. The rest .. Rock, Abang Dan and the Tikus was all there waaaaaaaayyyy before us. But they hung around Esplanade till we arrive. We had to wait for Mafia to finish work.

It’s been ages since I went down Orchard. Almost forgot what nightlife was like!! I desperately wanted to let my hair down after a long hard week kicking butt at work. So we were all looking forward to an exacting evening that Tikus painted a picture in our minds.

The minute we got there - I queued up with Rock and Abang Dan whilst the rest fill their hunger with what food they can find at the Makansutra that fitted their meager budget. Unfortunately we were all ALMOST broke .... but just for that ONE night we were willing to burn what we have. Foolish as it may seem .... but sometimes ... its hard to control our "yearn".

Anyways .... What a night it turns out to be!

We waited and waited like almost forever ... THREE FREAKING HOURS to be exact!! When we got nearer and nearer the front and when we were about to give sighs of relief..... the BOMB Shell dropped!

"I'd like to aopologise to all of you but we are all FULLY booked and there will be no more admittance." The organiser announced. Our jaw dropped in disappointment. There were more disappointed customers. We could not believe it!

Out of frustration we went somewhere to just have a seat as our feet were practically worn out from standing in one position with little movement what with the crowd that we were with. Found some seats sat down for a breather and a smoke. So what’s the next P.A (plan of action) folks!

Well … I called in sick the next day. We just basically walked and talked and walked. We ended up at Mc’s and ate there. By the time it was done it was drizzling. *Sighs* the only one with the umbrella was Mafia.

Off all the people we bumped into was Iksan (hope I got the spelling right). Good news for from him. The guy that so loved piercing and punk hair do have cleaned up his image and is finally engaged!! We were all so happy for him (less one moody gal).

Emotions in everyone are hard to express and we did our best to keep things “cool” more or less. … Hhhhmmmm maybe one-day things will be self-explanatory between those involve.

Friends will forever be friends come high or low water! We eventually manage to help each other up our feet. Even though it MIGHT not seem to appear that way.

Just after dawn – we went home.

Tired and exhausted from the night … we slept through Sunday. Trying our best not to think about the rift that cause the relationship with friends to sour.

What will be … will be …. Youth is their ONLY selfish reason. TIME is on their side.

To be able to forgive each other – you MUST first learn to UNDERSTAND each other.

A Brain Dead Day

Crazy BabE

One fine day in 2006 Princess knew I was stressed about Jazzmann. Trying hard to help him solve some family issues. .....

Came back home ... (though many homes I have. In truth I have only one. My home lies where my Princess's heart lies.) Lets paint the town red she suggested. I said ok. Since neither of us have any clue to where we are heading. She suggested lets head for Boat Quay and we can decide when we get there. Ok.

Once there we chill at TCC. Had coffee, dessert, coffee than thought what to do next?? Hey lets be tourists for a day I suggested!! Lets go for a River cruise!! We did just that and had a ball of a time!! We acted like real tourist. Heee. heee That's quite easy actually with our little knowledge of places in Singapore ... and being with me is no help since I'M FOREVER DIRECTIONLESS.

Walked around - thought of a place ... erm ... hey let's go to X place problem is ... neiher of us have any clue to the location of this place!!

Hey lets call for directory service - ok. Sounds like a good idea at that time. No answer. Maybe they were to busy I suggested. Princess said if the place is THAT famous it should not be that difficult to find right??

Took a cab down to Jalan Mohamad Sultan (at least we thought it was in that direction). Ok its not there. So we asked around - people pointed us to a million directions. Princess called her friends who thought they knew the place. Well ... they kind of knew where it was JUST NOT THE EXACT location.

Finally took a cab. ... the cab driver entertained us with the funniest jokes about "the location" going ALMOST everywhere. Princess said I'm not satisfied - at least we must know where this LOCATION was. I agreed. We walked. Took cab. Took a trishaw!! Everyone thought we were tourists!!

For every step of the way no matter how frustrating it was ... it was fun and we could laugh at it now. The trishaw ride was the highlight of the evening! Worn out from walking and having no more ideas we found a bench and rested.

I needed a smoke badly! I was staring at my phone and realised that I was out of battery. It SUDDENLY strike me ... we have handphone with most high technology services - but NOT ONCE DID IT EVER CROSS OUR MIND TO EVER USE IT!! We started to laugh at our own stupidity!! When we finally checked the net ..... GUESS WHAT!!

The place was CLOSED!! But the bright side of it .... we FINALLY knew where it was!

We finally took a cab back and got drunk by our own laughter and stupidity. When we got back home ... there were more clumsiness that followed. We kept repeating the word "BODOH! BODOH!"

WHAT A BRAIN DEAD adventourous DAY!! Nevertheless ... we enjoyed the evening.

The Chalet

My posts are not in order of events but rather in the order as I recall them. Sometimes its impossible to report things live as a PC is not always accessible.

First day of Chalet Friday 29th

I was unfortunately working and can't get off early. Somewhere in the mid-afternoon a surprise call from Purpleheart he wants to prepare chicken for Princess and the Home Sweethearts!!! So he ajourned to the Princess Lair ..... must be sometime since he's been there.

Thought it was good for the two to catch-up.

I myself got there late. I heard the Hotty and Purpleheart exchange a "special" handshake. Hhhmmm that's a good sign. :)

By the time I got there the fire was already going. We got friendly neighbours who kept "feeding" us with food. I was feeling so out of the woods that all I had was cereal and cold milk and stayed in bed. Those who were there was absolutely fantastic - coming in and out just to check in on me. Thanks for the comfort folks.

Frankly ... I can't quite recall the following days that led to the 31st Dec. Since it was Hari Raya Haji I made the customary call to my parents as my dad was not in town and my mum was babysiting at Grangeford.

The same sentiments was felt by most of the Home Sweethearts but Skoot was the only that voiced it. Hhhhmmm - less drama, less fun. Well, this is true - second phase of growing up I guess. No security came over to quiet us down we and we were "TAME" by the HomeBoys standard.

The night before was only Princess, Hotty and myself. All I ever did from the 29th till 31st noon was to sleep, get up just for medication and back to sleep. I was so much better on the 31st itself. So I joined Anuar and Mafia in a game of Monopoly. I lost hands down!! Anuar is wayyyyyyyy toooooo good. He bought at strtegic points and practically monopolizes the board!! Re-match??

After the game,Mafia and I sneaked out and bought us some spray stringers. NoONE suspected it. Few seconds close to mid-night we sprang on everyone!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR .... 2007

Soon Hotty, Abang, Wind soon found our sprays and join us. Princess and Shakila were the lucikiest as they were in the showers. We waited patiently outside the door till Princess and Shakila came out .... Princess was the smart one she had a towel covering her head!! Sighs ... so she's the only one that did not get hit.

It wasn't long when I too head for the showers while the rest headed to join the gaiety of the rest of the crowd. To boogie and party till the wee hours .... which I have no clue. All I knew was suddenly I could feel Princess's body crept next to mine.

Soon .... before we knew it ... it was 9am. I was the first one to hit for the showers. Made breakefast of bread and jam and Milo. 10.30am there was s surprising knock on the door. Purpleheart appeared!! I was still groggy from sleep and I don't quite exactly know what to say except to mumble a "hi".

Things are much quieter and we packed with less commotion than we did the last time. Shakila, Cha Cha, Princess and I took one cab and the boys in the other.

That afternoon .... i practically slept for SEVERAL hours!!

So the 2007 is finally here!

All the best!

The Storm

Today .... I thought I'd be more than ready to kick ass at work. But the day was so unbelievably slow with little activities. Its now 18:13 and I'm already dead late for my tuition. The weather outside is pouring cats and dogs ...... almost feel like a hail storm!! :(

Hope it will lighten up by the time I finish this entry.

My mind is so bogged down about roofing over our heads (roofing refers to THE Princess Lair). The laws of this land seem so cruel and would not ease up. All because of a handful of bad apples... what with all the forgery goings on! *sighs* Please God hear my pryers help me, princess and chomelanggun to get through this bad storm.

My love life is no better. I am sooooo trying to get over Jazzmann. My Princess and Chomelanggun who knows me soooo well have given me strength I never knew existed. Tears ran like the flow of river but out of that came strength - a dam that will not break.

I'm trying to meet other people and get back into the dating game .... as people say. If you don't give it a shot you will never know - my princess keep reminding me. I'm finding such a hard time trying to put the past behind.

So till tomorrow ........... :)

FYI - this was yesterday .... the storm has not let up - YET.

Meeting Before the Big Event

Well ... today is the first day of work and getting back to work is almost a drag. Maybe perhaps I'm still in a holiday mood or My brain must still be in hibernation.


The chalet event was a success and we welcome in the new year with a blast!! Thanks to all my EVEgian Home SweetheartSsss. Even though I was down with a bug (whatever it may be) .... Each one of you never fail to look in on me to cheer me up and put a smile on my face.


Before the Chalet do we had a meeting (which was a norm) held at the Princess humble Lair. It was good to see all of them after a long while - Baby Care Bear, Mod, Mafia & Rock (who I see quite often), Skoot, Abang, Tikus, Wind, Emo, Princess's main squeeze none other than Mr Hotty. ... erm this is just to name a FEW! You know who you are.


Princess was taking down the minutes of the meeting. Almost forgot what's it like to have a meeting with all my Home Sweethearts. What with all the "norm" cursing, insulting, profanatory, swearing. ... all in the name of F.U.N!


I never tire to hear laughter, chatter or "sounds" from them and doing my best to feed their tummy which seems to be like bottomless pits. Wondering where do they tuck away all those food that they stuff their face in.


Meeting was ajourned on a high note!

A Bummer

September 26, 2005
I'm a Bum!

Recently I jusssssst feel like a bum. All I do is sleep, sleep, sleep and sleep!! Somehow being under the covers of my blanket is AAAAAALLLLlllll that I want to do. Wishing to be woken up by prince charming. Hmmmm dream on gal!

Maybe coz my pc is down .......... an EXCUSE??

Other than that stuffing my face with peanut butter and mooncakes! Feeling myself expanding SIDEWAYS!!! OMG!!

Ya I know. Hiding AGAIN! So what's new!! .......... hey! But I'm up and about right!!
Can't wait to go to the beach and just bum around on the beach. Much better than bumming around in bed ya. Its been ages since I've done that. its good to feel the sand on my feet.

So Catgal ....... see ya 2moro k! Hey maybe should change your nickname to water baby instead!! Its close to 1am now. Feel sleepy. But I know once I hit the bed I can't sleep. This has been for more than two weeks now!

Gosh!! Right now I just hate myself! I SOOOOOO HATE the real world. Reality sucks for me
:( Wish I was ALMOST carefree and 15 like Princess or strong headed like Catwoman and sensible like Sweet Pea!

So CatWoman ..... I'm taking B.A.B.Y steps to learn to fly. I'M NOT JUST TRYING OK! D.O.I.N.G.

TRY, Not
DO OR DO Not. Yes! There is no TRY! ........ words of a jedi master??

Closed Chapter - 2006

December 29, 2006
Closed Chapter

Gosh!! Its been ages since my last entry. So much has happen since. Seeing all the EVEGians all grown. 'O' Level have completed for some whilst others await their turn next year or have taken other path.

Though still in their teens being suddenly thrown in a world where harshness of the world is more felt than when they were still in school and carefree. A cross between a youth and an adult. Only thoughts of homeworks, ironing school iniforms and such .... are long gone.

Some who have already started work are FINALLY realising the TRUE meaning of the monetary value. Some still struggling through sending out resumes and going for interviews. For those who are still sending their resumes out .... DON'T GIVE UP k!

In a few days time memories of 2006 will be chapters of old and a new book begins .... 2007!
When my "little" Princess was at the chalet with her friends and myself last year. It almost seems like a lifetime ago! Now the same group and myself will be celebrating the closing of 2006 with a bash.

It will give all of us a chance to tighten that friendship bond.
So to all of you HERE'S WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST FOR 2007!!!

Nothing Gold Can Stay

A poem that hold close to my heart. What it means to me is that when you are young you have your youth. But this "youth" if not WELL spent will be lost. We only have one life. We have to treasure the things we have before its lost.

So ... Smile AlwayZzz and STAY GOLD :>

Nothing Gold Can Stay


Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

By Robert Frost

Happy New Year 2006!!

Happy New Year!

Hope is often rented by the year.
A ceremony helps ensure the signing.
People like transitions to be clear,
Preferably at moments when they're dining.
Yet as a rental flat can be a home,
No one wants to terminate this lease.
Each thinks hope too poor a risk to own
While needing its bright arc for inner peace.
Years therefore start with hope again renewed
Even as the old year's wishes die.
After all the books have been reviewed,
Ring in the New Year!--with a gentle sigh

Fantasy Lover

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable. Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life. By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.

Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What my Birthday Means

Your Birthdate: December 7

You are an island.

You don't need anyone else to make you happy.And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you.

Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights.

You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!Your strength: Your self sufficiency

Your weakness: You despise authorityYour power color: Maroon

Your power symbol: Hammer

Your power month: July