Cats Away

When the cats away the mice at play :) ...... Well, the bosses away and most of my paper work done. I did all my personal paper work. Its been quite a while since I've done that so there's loads to tidy up.

Never knew I had so much junk!! Its 5.29pm and ALMOST done. I guess I've to continue. I tried to create and upload some pictures but I seem to have some hic cups. Hmmmm. Anyways, I'll try and solve it tomorrow.

All that paper work made me hungry and I just made myself an instant cup noodle. Yummy!! That will lasst through the night. I'll be going back to Lakepoint tonight as I've not seen my dad in ages. Plus there are certain matter of the heart that I need to pour out.

I guess I'll leave early today. I've been good actually - cutting down on my smokes. ...... ALLOT.

Gotta go :)

Mama

I've been thinking about Mama allot these past months. Not quite sure why. Perhaps its got to do with Princess.

I know she's not my real mum for I know I only have ONE BIOLOGICAL mum and she brought me up. I love my mum and that's NEVER going to change.

But at the same token I also love you Mama. You have been nothing but kind to me never failing to show your care and concern. I can't thank you enough nor can I repay you except Allah. You have never boasted of your blue blood though I've been somewhat accuse by some that THAT is the only reason why. Not true ok. I do love Truely and Sincerely.

Though I know I'm not always there for you. Believe me when I say I sooooooo do wish to see you at LP every week. My work has robbed me of most of my time and its NEVER in purpose.

So I hope you can forgive me for my lack of time with you. I'll do my best in making up for lost time whenever I have a chance.

Love you and Miss you AlwayZzzz

Claustrophobic

Sunday March 25

Went to teach as usual and was about to leave for tuition before I got a call from my mum. Her leg hurts and wanted me to take her to my aunt!! Whatever for?? A miracle cure??

I left, took a cab and went straight to GH. Gosh!! Her sugar level was high, her kidney wasn't all that strong. She was in hospital for a WHOLE WEEK!!

I had other things on my mind too:
Princess's future - answer was slow and burdening on all our minds
Suitors for the Domain - can't be solve without certain procedures not being met.
Princess was also under the weather from today.
Dues and MORE DUES ........

Suddenly, I find I can't breathe.

My past keep haunting me. Nightmares are a common thing. I'm greatful however that Jazzmann made the effort to come see my mum and that cheered her somewhat.

My faithful LOTR cap followed me for the past few days .... to keep off people staring at my Goldfish eyes. But ya I'm much better now though my stain of my tears never fully disappear.

Domain Up for Grabs

So finally we have resorted for a lesser comfort in the future.

We have exhausted all avenues in doing our best to save this domain which has been our sanctuary for quite some time now. To think about the next move and looking around at all the things that have been accumulated over the years.

Gosh!! How I hate shifting!! Finally it was advertised in the papers and the reality slowly start to sink in. "This domain is up for Grabs!"

"Suitors" for this domain started the race viciously. Calls unrelenting toggling between classes and other duties. Gosh!! Its not easy at all!! Next problem is ..... Suitors from far and near come to view and even just take a peak - is almost close to impossible!

The timing is never right!

Romantic Compatibility by Galendri

Hey Girl,


I think this break up is just a temp. I somehow don't think the two of you can live without each other. He may be JUST flirting. But I know he cares for you ALLOT! I know what I'm saying. ok. Don't be tooooooo sad k.

Coz can't get it from MAIN person so he goes from flower to flower. But I know there's only ONE. Just trust me k.


Romantic Compatibility Reading for Nariman & Mohd Fauzi

Birth Data for Nariman:
Birth Date and Time..... December 7, 1965
Birth Location............. Singapore, Singapore

Birth Data for Mohd Fauzi:
Birth Date and Time..... December 17, 1958
Birth Location............. Singapore, Singapore



Your Reading:


Nariman's Sun Conjunct Mohd Fauzi's Mercury:

Talking and sharing ideas is highlighted in your relationship. You enjoy learning new things together and exchanging points of view. You work well together in planning, organizing, theorizing, writing, or communicating ideas in any manner. You work together effectively on daily chores, problems, or business activities.


Mohd Fauzi's Sun Opposition Nariman's Jupiter:

There is a great deal of enthusiasm and optimism in your relationship. You inspire each other to expand your horizons, explore new possibilities, and improve your financial and social situation. You have a lot of good will towards each other, and also allow each other a lot of freedom. You may, however, engage in risky speculations together that are driven more by optimism and hopefulness than by well thought out plans, and consequently fall far short of your expectations. Overall, however, this astrological influence is a positive one of good will and optimism.


Nariman's Sun Trine Mohd Fauzi's Uranus:

Playfulness and a zest for newness infuse your realtionship. You really spark each other's imagination and creativity. This quality is especially welcome in a long-term relationship because you will not fall into a lifeless routine. You spur each other to explore, take risks, and develop new creative outlets. You encourage each other's independence and you have faith in one another's creative, inventive ideas and interests.

Daily Tarot - The Six Wands

What is Tarot Reading?

The Tarot is a deck of cards that originated over 500 years ago in northern Italy. Although the Tarot was first used in a game called Triumphs, it was quickly adopted as a tool for divination, and popularized by occult societies such as the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. The early Tarot symbolism was deeply rooted in Medieval and Renaissance Europe, but over the centuries it has grown to incorporate everything from Astrology and Kabbalah to Runes (which predate the Tarot by 1000 years) and the I Ching (which predates the Tarot by 2500 years). Today, the Tarot is far and away the most popular tool for spiritual introspection in the West.

This is my reading for today - take it with a pinch of salt :)

The Six of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in validation. I rise to the occasion and am motivated or made confident to take it to the next level by the recognition, admiration, praise, or accolades put on my achievements or personal success. I am newly aware of and proud of my sense of empowerment and I transform through acceptance.

Horizon

Today is my first day of work after a long while. Eventhough I am still not well .... I push myself up so that I could pick up that momentum AGAIN. I must have lost it sometime ago.

With all sorts of "worldly affairs" swaming around my head. Makes me feel worse and just demoralises me. All I want to do is just to hide underneath my blanket and forget the world - Just for NOW anyway.

What with JC away for a holiday for a month. The office is deathly quite except for the sound of music from my radio and the clicking sound from my keyboard gives such eerie echo sound. But I'm kinda use to the loneliness. Being alone is something I have to get use to from now on.

Where is that silver lining I saw ..... it seems so far away. Its like in the horizon somewhere so unreachable. But InshaAllah - God will grant it in my grasp.

I'm feeling soooooo sleeeeeepy and can't stop Yyyyyaaaaaaawnning. I'm just so afraid to take my medication for fear that my bed is all that I yearn *sighs*. Hope to feel better tomorrow because I need to go and work over the weekends.

Dreams Dashed ---------------

I have been ill for over a week now and still not recovered yet. I know I have to push on AND I MUST. Princess is keeping me strong and has somewhat lifted my spirit.

How I love her so much and will do my best to give her all that I have.

There are more struggle now as we work just to make ends meet. Slogging from hand to mouth. A humblER abode to wresstle for, a place for further education, employment and whole other list that will only make my headache with such unbearable excruciating pain. :(

When I got an email from the Microsoft Award Team telling me I've won 500 000 GBP!! I just could not believe it. I was wise to do some research on the net. Apparently .....

1) there's no such thing as the Microsoft Award Team
2) the address they gave was incorrect
3) besides don't you think the winner would be informed through the mail rather than EMAIL??

If only this were true *sighs* the things I can do with the money! All our problems will be solved with a blink of an eye! Now our dreams are dashed.

But life has taught me one thing ...... THERE ARE NO SHORT CUTS. The fruits of our labour must be earned sincerely and honestly only can we enjoy the returns.

I suppose better luck next time!

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Dear Esteem Customer : Nariman Khalil

Greetings to you,from International Cargo  Courier Service,
We are proud to inform you that,we are in possession of a certified parcel,with identification number{CPEL/OWN/9486},which is to be delivered to you,as instructed by our affiliate Microsoft Lottery Board.You are to please confirm the below data's,if they are correct about the receiver of the parcel,to enable us input it into our computer delivery system.

Receiver's Name:  Nariman Khalil

 

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Microsoft Award Team
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London NW10
United Kingdom
Ref: BTD/968/07
Batch: 409978E

 

Dear Nariman Khalil ,

 

We wish to congratulate you once again on this note,for being part of the 5 winners selected on this month of MARCH  .The Microsoft Award felicitate with you and your family.This promotion was set-up to encourage the active users of the Internet Microsoft Windows.

 

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Re: Please Don't See Her

Yup, up to this very point I still can't forget it and yes I still do have feelings for him. What happen on March 8th is a sudden shock to me.

As you can tell I'm not well and I've been sick and getting sicker. I don't much care anymore.

Yes, Ido believe that things happen for reason. I was hoping that we all could come full circle.

But when he left us - March 8th. Princess and I cried. Most often I cried alone. How can I forget? Its not the suffering so much as to me my sacrifices was part of my duty when you loving someone. I never dreamt that it will ever be like this.

But ..... it is and now my depression and hurt is a process. Yes, I also pray for the best for him. May his new found love is EVERYTHING he is looking for.

I am way toooo tired to compete with his other girls. I'm just warn out. I've nothing left in me now besides the emptiness he use to fill.

I have no beauty, no feminity, not demure, not intelligent, not highly educated, not rich. ..... I have nothing to offer after I've given him EVERYTHING! .... my heart, my soul and my toil.

Please Don't See Her by Apple Blossom

There's one more thing I'd like to tell u. Actually a long time ago, when i received A Forwarded email from Jazzman, he didnt realise that together with THAT email,
I found out that he was going to meet you for the first time and i was very, very disappointed with him.


I begged him not to meet you and reminded him about his promises to me, that I was his only woman. But from then on, he never replied my emails, sms and phone calls.


He was silent for a long, long time..and
during that period of time, I went through an intense depression losing abt 4-5kg of my weight. I even went to a doctor to get pills to overcome my depression.


The break off lasted for abt 9 months, I was getting better then, when suddenly he appeared back in my life, calling me on the phone and sending me emails and sms.


Since i still had feelings for him, i was
happy he finally wanted to come back to me. Then he came to KL for 2 nites. I took him to a concert in Istana Budaya, then on to other places such as the Bintang Walk ..I hate to drive in KL at night but for him, I enjoyed taking him around KL, going to KLCC,
taking the LRT to Times Square etc.


However, silently i was asking myself why when we met, he never ever apologised for the things that he did to me, and the
sufferings that i had gone thru. He was so insensitive and an unconcerned man! Yet I still can accept him at that time! I can't believe it.


But I never asked him about you and He never talked about u either, but he used to say that he was busy, attended trainings in s'pore and in Japan as well as in the USA or somewhere in Europe, and above all, how lonely he was, with work and work and work..


I was obsessed with him and believe every single word he said about his love for me and wanting to come and work in malaysia. I didnt realise that he was juz playing with my emotions..


Its not that i was short of
admirers here in kl, i have a good job, a home, a good car, i even drove him around the outskirts of kL including PJ and Damansara.. but I guess, it was his sweet talk that i fell for him.


He was such a good talker and writer and poet.. but not at all handsome or goodlooking as the photo that he sent me the first
time we started to communicate.


You know, that time he sent me his old photo which showed his slim shape and not his current size which is a bit boroi..but i guess
his sweet talk managed to hide his shortcomings which
eventually won my heart..



Now, come to think of it, I dont think he has any real feelings for any woman. He only has lust. That is Jazzman that i know.


But i pity him. I guess in 15-20 years from now, he will regret all that he had done..and the women who had sincerely loved him.. I belief, one day he will come to his senses, and by that time it will be too
late..



Anyway, foreverknight, let us learnt from our past mistakes. I do not keep any hard feelings towards you or Jazzman.


I believe for every things that has happened in our life, there's always a hikmah. If u happened to re-continue your love life with Jazzman, I wish u happiness and to forget what i said about him.


Who knows, maybe he will change for the better.



Lets look forward to the future with positive hope, lots of drive, optimism and belief in God's destiny.


All the best for the future ya! :)

Recovery - NOT

16th March 2007

I thought I was on myway to recovery - I WAS SOOOOO WRONG. At10:15 myphone buzz there was a message by JC. But I could notquite focus on what it said "are youcoming to work??".

Oh My Gosh!! I'm already soooo dead late. I tried to get up but I could not. My head hurts when I try to move. My whole body feels so numb. and I just could not move. I sms JC very quickly saying that I can't make it.

After awhile of adjusting to my body and time I guess I somehow manage to drag my body out of bed made breakfast while chomelanggun and princess still asleep. Took my "dope" another long story followed about princess's well being. I was way tooo daze so I just hit the sack ..... it was another day of in and out of slumber AGAIN. I've been doing allot of that lately.

On my bed resting I can hear the clicking sound of the keyboard going on and on making a rhythm on its own. From the kitchen a wiff of zesty smell consume me and that made my mouth water. It wasn't long when chomelanggun called us for dinner. We sat and ate watched DVD movie and my eyes could not be kept open.

In the afternoon I call up JC to scaned the returned cheques which my boss made a mistaoverlooked the matter.
After the movie they packed their things and left. I'll be ok I assured them. But I told them that I'd be going back to my mum's tonight. Which I did .... so we all left together.

Jazzmann was just a silent word around the house. Its so hard to just forget about it.

And soon sleep will envelop my whole being and and seems like a dark shadow has blanket my eyes and I'm forced to sleep.

Silver Lining

15th March - III


This will be my last entry for the night. Being dizzy from my medication i felt a little sleepy inthe afternoon. Actually not quite sure what time it was. By the time i got up the place was all spruced up!! Even the bathroom!! Chomelanggun came back at about 9pm plus. As usual tales been exchanged and i gave her the low down on home news.


She also got us gifts as usual and brought home food in abundance!! Got me a batman bedsheet. Its soooo wonderful and ABSOLUTELY beautiful. I am such a batman freak. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.


Got for princess her alltime perfume ..... Miracle by Lancome and more clothes to top it off. Checked the letter box there was a letter .... AND FINALLY .... THAT silver lining appeared in thepost as i read the news to both princess and Chomelanggun. Thank you God for your kindness may it be in kindness or financially. Both went to their relatives house to prepare the wedding of princess's cousin. I'd follow but i need my rest so that i can kick ass at work the following day.


Peace. .... For now and a silver lining at last. Thank you Allah for helping us and granting ourwishes. Thank you...... All that has already put quite a strain. .... Soon sleep will over take me.

..... YyaaawwNnn and hope for a sweet dream.

Fear and Hope

A heat wave is already being felt. Process - a struggle. Where is victory ... Why is it so
unreachable?

Though i have faith in myself and seeking Allah's help and guidance .... I know.... There'll be a
silver lining on every cloud. But due to my strength ... The struggle is even harder.

They say we live balancing our life on a thin thread between hope and fear. Hmmm reminds me of Shawshank Redemption. ....

Fear will keep us prisoner and ONLY hope will set us free. ... A must watch movie.

Ooops i can hear the door shut. Hmmm hotty just left the house and princess keeping busy in the kitchen and the house is so deathly quiet now.

I think i better stop here for I canfeelthe strain on my eye sight. Besides my battery growing flat.

Feeling Weak

Resting in my bed and just got up from my deep slumber.

Yeah, took the day off after JC spoke to my boss.

As my strength draining away from me i see my life flash before like a bad nightmare. .....

I was my dad's golden child. I was adorn with things a plenty. I get almost anything i want. My
life wasn't perfect and i'm not sure why but the things that I under take are always halfway. ... Among all the other IMPERFECT things that I've done.

Wanting to start with a clean slate. I went away and now realise how rash a decision that was and I wasted 5 stupid years being abroad. Though lessons I've learnt out of text books are priceless.

I wish i had not done so there are lots of "I wish i had not", but its far too late for me now.

Too many i want to start anew seems like words of a broken record to my family.

Now that this seems to be my final straw. There are changes i want to make and face the music on my own or rather with a NEWER set of situations known only to people who are involve.

As for you my family I'll eventually tell you. But now is not the time JUST YET. Though i'm breaking inside i know i have that spirit to fight ..... I must. At least for a little while longer.

I so want to own victory but its not mine to claim YET. I can't even smell it. For my roller
coaster ride has just got bumpier.

Since last night I've been going in and out of slumber with dreams i can't recall.

I was aware that princess was in my room as i could spot the tell tale signs. She's been so good
and improving more each day the experiences and inquisitive of a 17 year old ... As she discover
more and more the hardship of how life and the reality of it all.

Though changes you may not like but must endure. Though the strength in me have left .... It will grow and continue to flow in you.

Changes where you and i must soon adapt. Chomelanggun will soon be arriving tomorrow. Tales of abroad will be exchange with home news.

A birthday, a wedding, a new domain, a new beginning .... Are things that will soon come.

Congratulations You Are A Winner!!!

Microsoft Award Team
20 Craven Park, Harlesden London
NW10 United Kingdom
Ref: BTD/968/07
Batch: 409978E


Dear Sir/Madam,


WINNING NOTIFICATION

The prestigious Micrsoft and Aol has set out and successfully organised a Sweepstakes marking the beginning of the first quarter anniversary and we have rolled out over £25,000,000.00(Twenty-five Million pounds) for the beginning of the year Anniversary Draws. Participants for this draws were randomly selected and drawn from a wide range of web hosts which we enjoy their patronage.

The selection was made through a computer draw system attaching personalised email addresses to ticket numbers, if you ignore this, you will regret it later. Microsoft and AOL are now the largest Internet companies and in an effort to make sure that Internet Explorer remains the most widely used program, Microsoft and AOL are running an e-mail data test.

Your email address as indicated was drawn and attached to ticket number 008795727498 with serial numbers BTD/a9080648302/07 and drew the lucky numbers 14-21-25-39-40-47(20) which subsequently won you £ 500,000.00 (fiveHundred Thousand pounds) already issued in a cheque as one of the 10 jackpot winners in this draw. You have therefore won the entire winning sum of £500,000.00 (five Hundred Thousand pounds). The draws registered as Draw number one was conducted in Brockley, London United Kingdom .

These Draws are commemorative and as such special. Our Fiduciary agent will immediately commence the process to facilitate the release of your cheque as soon as you contact him.

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Our special thanks and gratitude to Bill Gates and his associates. We wish you the best of luck as you spend your good fortune. Thank you for being part of our commemorative of MARCH Anniversary Draws.

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Microsoft Promotion Team

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Not Well

I so have no mood to work today. Just one night out of Woodlands and already missing Princess. ...

Anyways duty calls and I had to drag myself out of bed. At this point of time - I'm just feeling soooooooo very warn out. Though I know I must hang on. I'm not sure how long I can last .... but I'll try. I've got 10 mins more than I've got to go to MRC. Got to make it to class tonight.

I know I'm not well but I so yearn the sea and the feel of my feet on the sand. Sounds like a good idea just to lie on the beach. I hope for a good weather tonight than. - but my wish is soooo dash as I hear the sound of thunder outside.

Shop, shop and Shop!! by Apple Blossom

Come to think of it.. I feel its only yesterday that I was in Medan, when actually 3 months had passed by..

I went there on December 11, 2006 and now exactly 3 mths after that, I will be travelling to Padang.. If u are wondering why i keep going to that side of the world, its because the places there have so many things that you can find cheap!

yes, its so cheap to buy for example, materials to make your dresses or gowns, handycrafts, arts, food and cakes.. yummy yummy...i love cakes..and they have this traditional cake called Kek Lapis..they are very very tasteful..

I was in Medan with my NGO friends, umi, bada and noya.. only 4 of us. And we had a hell of a good time there. We shopped and shopped..with hundreds of thousand of rupiahs.. hah..ha..ha.. yes..i became an instant millionaire while i was there..and believe me, anyone would have
experienced what i was experiencing in terms of mathematics..

When you are handling rupiahs there, all your sense of mathematics gone... its because you will feel that you are handling a lot of money.. even 1000 rupiah seems a lot. But i was shocked when the street boys whom I tried to give the 1000 Rp, they turned it down.. I thought it was so big..but soon i realized its only worth 25sen here in KL. No wonder...

But that did not stop me from spending in Medan till my last rupiah. And upon my return to KL, my purse was empty but I had a great time travelling to Medan which was my second trip there.

I hope to visit Medan again not too long from now.

Dreams in Pursuit

Some of you or rather most of you who did not get the postings you want ..... don't give up on your dreams ok. There are other means - IF THERE'S A WAY THERE'S A WILL.

Well, I guess you know what Princess got. That susks ALLOT. There was even an article on the JC and Poly. I know its unfair .... BUT .... THAT is the system and THEY BETTER CORRECT IT LIKE SOON. Too many people are already struggling all because of it.

Erm .... I cannot tell what lies in the future. I was just talking to Princess just last night to expect changes. Changes - sometimes when cornered you just have to adapt to it. I know you hate changes in life baby but - your whole life were and STILL ARE full of changes. Just take the changes as a challenge ok baby. I cannot answer your question to whether they will be good or bad. Life is what you make it to be.

This NOT ONLY goes for my darling princess but also applies to the lot of you ok. Take the change in your stride BUT TAKE IT AND ADAPT AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

Whatever it is how hard are you going to fight for your dream?? Never forget that LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT TO BE. If you want that dream and THAT IS YOUR goal .... than go for it with everything you've got. The thing is .... at least you tried.

Baby Flame - thank you soooooooooo very much for last night. It's very sweet of you. Anyways, hope you enjoyed watching Return of the King AGAIN!! I enjoyed cooking for any of Princess's frenz not to worry. No trouble at all - just pity it didn't turn out to be patties! Ha ha.

Thank you my darling baby just sitting next to me last night after Flame left makes me feel better. Erm ... I didn't think you felt the same way I do. Muaaah, Muaaah. Your hugs and kisses means allot to me.

Both of us should get two huge buckets!! I guess .... sometimes though the company is good but there are occasions where we just need to cry on our own.

I'm not sure how long I'll last dear - but I'll be there for as long as I can ok.

My roller coaster ride has not ended yet :) Good part is that ..... I'm not riding alone.

West Side by Darknight

Simon & I are in Sichuan(chengdu) now. We are heading west towards Tibet(not to Tibet though) then North and then back to Chengdu. it is still hot here. things are alot slower here compared to Shanghai. the population is the same as singapore (about 4 mill).

ate yak meat for the first time last night. very nice & will try it again but will stay from the yak butter milk.

hope all is well at home

love, hugs & kisses,

Yunan by Darknight

Hope you have had a great weekend collecting the red packets with the kids.

CNY in the south west is quite different from the north. firstly, it is not such a biggy as in shanghai where they do all the fire works and crackers but the shops are still close and the streets are real quiet. so this is quite nice. such a change from the noise.

simon and i are having a great time in Yunan. We left kunming today and we are now in JinHong near the Myannmar border. Its so much like Thailand,...the weather is great in comparison to shanghai.

we will get bikes tomorrow and cycle around. and then hopefully some trekking in the hill tribes villages before we go back to shanghai on 28 feb.

love to all

Who am I?

I cant believe im writing this on the mrt on my way to work.

I guess certain things just need to be explain. Jazzmann and i are getting all the backlash.

Mine is more from him. Just read his email stating Ive not put much thought on what i wrote.

Which is obviously not true. If people do not know the situation should they not TELL me so i can
explain? Instead of blowing their horn at the wrong people?

That is the purpose of a comment box and a flash box for. So people can say what they want without
leaving their real name.

Been criticise - for one .... Why chömelanggun was not around during princesss 17th birthday.

Well, that was because her niece passed away. Those of you who attended her funeral know better.

WHO AM I TO PRINCESS??

A babysitter? Guardian? God mother? Friend? ..... Does it really matter .... Why not just someone
who cares about her? Isnt that sufficient?

WHO AM I TO CHOMELANGGUN??

An adopted sister? A friend? Some say secretary? Why not someone to grow old with? What about
someone who understands me and vice versa? Why not just best of friends .... As close as blood
sisters isnt that sufficient?

WHAT IS JAZZMANN aka PURPLEHEART TO ME??

For five years, seven months and eight days ..... He was my life, my virtual air that i breathe.
He was my EVERYTHING that i do and that i am now. Call it what you like. Even up till this very
moment i still love him and i still do care for him. That is something that has not change. My
feelings are not like a tap where you can just turn on and off anytime you like.

All my sacrifices are not wasted and i never regretted from the very 1st time i got to know him.

I hope I have made clear to who i am to the three people that i care all this while. .... ITS IN
PRESENT TENSE.

In simple i still do care and still love them. Despite of the fact that Jazzmann left US. ... Who
is the US? .... Only for those who know and Allah offcourse who knows everything.
Feel free to enter your comments or shout. I hope this has enlighten some thoughts.

Re: NO GUTS from Temasek58

What is it to U....???..!!!

Like I said MAY GOD Have MERCY on YOUR FAMILIES SOUL for the DIRTY N HEARTLESS things YOU DID TO PEOPLE...........

AND U Said I was heartless..... UR WORST OFF....!!!!!!

GOD HELP U for no HUMANs can..... like I SAID MAY GOD have MERCY on your Parents n FAMILY's SOUL for ALL THE DIRTY N HEARTLESS THINGS U DID to PEOPLE....

Heres some Flowers for the BEREAVEMENT TO YOUR FAMILY n PARENTS souls

MAY THE CURSE Of all the PEOPLE U HURT BE With U , your FAMILY n LOVED ones FOREVER

..welll like I SAID only GOD can help U in this........

The Aftermath

Dear Venus & Temasek,

Thank you for your kind words and your contribution to my blog. The reading is very enlightening. JUST DO NOT FLOOD MY BLOG!!

I finished worked at 5.30pm was meeting Princess soon ... what with the registration and signatures blah, blah, blah. I just could not meet her soon enough as I just needed to calm my nerve after reading what Venus and Jazzman had to say.

If there are any more bickerings between the 2 off you - do that in private ok. I blame NO ONE but myself for E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G that has happen and for ALL of Jazzman's fall. He has filled my life till recently. My tears still fall but .... I guess that's part of the process. I so do want to forget. Yet its so difficult to just switch off.

BLAME ME if anyone of you want to blame. Thank you Ace for being on Princess's and my side and put Kell whoever THAT person maybe.

DON'T BLAME JAZZMANN anymore ok. Let's just move on with our lives. Insha Allah with his guidance ... we will find that strength we all need to move on. To each his own.

Met Princess for awhile than we parted. Didn't actually want to go back immediately. So took a long slow dinner by myself at The Banquet. Had one of the biggest cup of coffee ever. For the first time ..... I didn't take the bus I normally do. I decided to take a slow walk. Not that I've never took THAT walk before. Just not by myself.

Ha ha ..... got lost at Fu Shan Park. I must have walked in circles for a bit. Bought bread and green tea. One of Princess and my fave!! I still can't believe what have just happen. I guess I just needed my space and just want to JUST CRY and perhaps knock my thick skull.

Give me time ok. I so love you princess. Thank you for all the hugs your care and concern I so need that. I love you always baby.

Re: Loverboy - from Temasek58

THANK GOD IM NOT THE ONE THAT CHEAT AND BETRAY AT THE OFFICE YET HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY HOW WONDERFUL SHE IS...

REMEMBER URSELF.....U HURT PPL ...ONE DAY PPL WIL HURT VENUS HONEY n YOUR FAMILY....

LOOK URSELF IN THE MIRROR .......... I DNT WANT TO BE U.....

IF U ONLY KNOW THE TRUTH ABT MY LIFE.......for that only God knows the truth and that's enough.

I THANK GOD FOR SHOWING US WHO U REALLY ARE..............

U HAVE A Pleasant day.......May GOD have mercy on ur family Venus

I JUST PRAY TO GOD WE will SEE the light at the end of the tunnel...........Amen....

O yaa......... BTW I WILL NEVER B GOOD thru PEOPLES' EYES.....

To think of it WHY don't these ppl DUMP ME if IM VERY BAD....hmmmmm

Dnt worry ladies I will not bother U ALL anymore.....N U CAN BLAME ME...ALL OF them..BUT YOURSELF.......Im USED To it........

I Gez it will just be a matter of time huh....

May GOD Bless Us all....For I hv had enough

Loverboy - from Venus Honey

Got this picture from MSN.

This is the first time I'm writing on someone else's blog. But its one that
I feel I need to. This is for ALL the girls that Jazzmann's been with.
THIS IS WHO HE REALLY IS!!

I'm so very sorry Auntie but I need to put your son's picture. He has harm WAY
tooooo many girls. Please don't blame Foreverknight ok. Foreverknight's family -
I'm sorry to disappoint you people. I know you all love and adore him. But
this is the REAL him! Yes, he has a kind heart and he wants to please everyone. But at waht cost??

Jazmann aka Purpleheart aka Max X aka Fauzi .... your mind is so complex
that few or many fail to comprehend you. What do you want from us?? Or
rather WHO do you want?? Is monetary value most important to you??

Foreverknight - a kind and selfless person and so full of love. ...

She went out way after her lunch hour so just she could get food for the
cleaner - because she was hungry. Now how many of us would REALLY do that!!

Once we went out and it was late, few teenagers approach her for some money
saying that they have been robbed. Showing her the police report and all.
At that point of time she was dead broke. She still gave them half of what
she had .... why?? So that they can go back home!! If it was me - I don't
think I'd bother!

If I have to mention EVERY single kind deed - it WILL NEVER END!!

In the office its so easy to bully and take advantage of her - but she still
come out in a smile! Never failing to be bubbly and cheerful. No matter
how broken she is.

If we tell her her that this person is taking advantage; she would reply
"Evil cannot exist without good."

If you cheat and betray her; she would reply "I forgive you."

If you warn her that harm will come to her; she would reply "May god protect
me from hurt and take me without having to suffer much."

I have never in my WHOLE ENTIRE life come across anyone like her!! E.V.E.R.
Maybe she doesn't come from earth who knows!

Jazzmann walked into her life 5 years 7 months plus ago. Loving him and
never failing to stand by his side NO MATTER what fall or "STORM" they are
in. All she wanted out of him is TRUTH, FAITH, LOVE.

Now - due to being cornered (I'm sure if you ask him this he would deny this
fact and turned it around and point the finger at Wifey). He dumped
foreverknight!! He's the dumper. ALwayZzzz!! That's he's style - kiss and
run. You ask why?? He'll give you a million reasons to put the fault on
THE GIRL. If you ask why did it start?? - he'll blame it on wifey not
sleeping with him (from what I've been told it was only last July '05!!) But
can you blame her?? The youngest child is only about 1 year old!!

BTW - he told some of his gf that his wife died and that him and the kids
are staying with his mum!! What kind of a story is that!! If this is not
cruelty!! Than I don't know what is!!

He'll tell you - he's a responsible person in EVERY AREA. You think just
cause you give money to your kids every month THAT'S IT!! Sorry, its more
than that Mate!

How many hearts has he broken?? God only knows .... from appleblosom,
foreverknight, hanacutie maybe??, Mila maybe?? and many more along the way!
All he has to do is to adorn them with gifts, sweet words, poetry and
they'll melt at his knees!

Who does he think he is?? God's gift to women!!

Jazzmann's women from ex-wife to current wife to ex-gf (more than 1!!). Let me
tell ALL of you that he's work his magic AGAIN. He work fast doesn't he!!
Let's hope he doesn't break THIS current GIRL's heart. ... (erm ... that's 2 btw. 1 oversea and 1 local.)

What does he want out of us?? Or rather WHO does he want?? We ever chatted
on-line and once ... I ever asked him "why not just sleep with prostitutes?" Know
what his ans is .... "they have no feelings." So basically all he wants is
to have many flings??!!!

Wow!! Phone sex, cyber sex - I'm sure some of you
have done that with Jazzmann right?? What is so fantastic about that??
What happen to the conventional way?? Yeah, and THAT too!! His sexual drive must be so damn high!! He just cannot stick to apples but he also want a taste of oranges and mangoes!

I am writing this out of PURE anger. Don't worry. He has no guts to call
up foreverknight or visit ANY of you. You know why?? He is GUILTY as hell
and only full of lies.

Remember this Jazzmann life is a vicious cycle - you do this TO YOUR WOMEN.
You have 2 daughters!! Can you be certain that NO ONE will ever hurt both
your daughters?? You better pray hard that your son DON'T EVER BECOME LIKE
YOU!! Chip of the OLD block??

YOU ARE SUCH A CRUEL FUCKING ASS HOLE!! Yes I dare say this on the net.
Your CRUELTY has no end!! Its beyond words!

This is the only picture I have of them. But most of you have already seen their pictures from her friendster. Which have now been taken out. I guess - Jazzmann doesn't want THE OTHER of his girls to find out.

I will salute you if you have an answer to this article dedicated ONLY to
you and FOR you. I'm sorry foreverknight. I just had to do it. Don't worry dear. He IS NO LOST!!

Now that Jazzmann is out of your life - you don't have to work so hard ok. Must learn to enjoy life, LOVE yourself first. You will always have princess by your side. Just concentrate on her. Just DON'T EVEN THINK of those sweet memories. Though I know its hard .... but .... yeah. This is the truth.

But than again I think partly you asked for it foreverknight. You should NEVER E.V.E.R surrender yourself 100%!! But I guess that's part of love.

In actual fact I can't believe you would do all these to foreverknight. Why didn't you just stop at her 5 years ++++ ago?? What fault has she done to you?? Why must YOU lie to all your girls?? Why can't you just be straight forward?? Why must you continue searching and going to many girls?? You ARE the one that created a monster in ALL of us girls.

What change you? ..... Any defence to any of these questions?? Ha ha ha!! Can't answer right!

Liar Liar Pants on fire - hope your balls get roasted as well!!

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