Memories

Sticks and Stones may break my bones ...

But words can never hurt me!!

True?? To a certain extent as we are all only human to be affected. Its just a blog. Its what I write. Its my expression. Almost NOTHING is hidden. To Each HIS Own.

When a family looked at guy - and their expression is "Oh, he has the boy next door kind of quality." Which girl will not fall for him. Once found out that SHE's not the only one. When confronting the guy?? He diverts his question. Girl stood and STILL standing by his side. Can a girl take if she's not the only one?? Can a guy really fall for soooooooo many girls?? Ok. So the Muslim law allows a man to marry four wives. He just need to make sure that he gives equal love to all.

But what if he keeps denying the fact despite of MANY evidences?? Why deny?? Why hide??

Is it by hiding people will think THIS person is THE PERFECT guy? But at what cost?? Won't it be better to just be open and frank?? In plain - NOT A HYPOCRITE!

So now ..... we few girls will go through the "hurt and depression" process. Don't want to .... but i guess its unavoidable. People can advice us and be there for us - which is important. Tears will pour. Friends are important at times like these.

And memories ..... will be a thing of the past. Email keep pouring in to keep reminding me that I'm on his mind. But what's the point of that?

Don't actions speak louder than words?? What does a guy like him wants?? Will it ever stop?? Will there ever be a conclusion??

Thank you for all the happiest moments. You have filled my void for the past 5 years and 7 months PLUS .... right till March 8th 2007. You are all that I know and still do.

May you find what you are looking for at the end of the rainbow.

Thank you my darling princess for being there for me during all my falls. .... (and many more falls to come, I'm sure ;)

HATE Shout

Never judge a person by its cover.

To each HIS own.

Turning into a new leave??

Lately Princess received some hate shout on her blog but she's not the only one affected!! Why do people need to give such remarks.

Jazzmann once told me that we are all govern by society that we live in. So what does this mean?? That we all have to dress and speak ACCORDING to their expectations?? What happen to freedom of speech and expression?? Don't how we as individual count??

I remembered one time a guy with piercings came to visit Princess in hospital. Immediately was criticise about the company she is keeping. Despite of the fact THAT NO ONE there knew anything of this person. FYI - this person is getting married soon and he's an accomplished accountant. SURPRISE!! Well ..... NEVER JUDGE A PERSON BY ITS COVER!!

So what if we go against the grain and express how we feel?? Hhhhmmm our family members will get the brunt. But won't we be hypocrites if we go with the flow?? As Ace replies to Kell's harsh remarks "at least we are true to ourselves". This I so believe. What you see as what I TRULY am. Though I am adaptable to changes quite easy BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN that I'll not be myself. Myself will just be a little control.

So .... I think its not good to be judgemental!

One man's meat is another man's poison.

Sticks and Stones may break my bones ...
But words can never hurt me!!

True?? To a certain extent as we are all only human to be affected. Its just a blog. Its what I write. Its my expression. Almost NOTHING is hidden. To Each HIS Own.

CNY Smile Drink!

Allot has happen during the hols. More tears, coming to terms with facts. Trying hard to be strong. Always wondering - flames to dust, lovers to friends. Though these are the terms that we have to accept. Its kind of difficult when all these years its - ONLY THAT person that has occupied your life.

Anyways ...........

I'm so happy that Princess has good friends. When I came back and saw the trios (Ca, Sha and her) in the kitchen chatting and laughing. That felt sooooooooo good :) They went to play some Badminton and Rollerblade for awhile before they came up all sweaty but happy and smiling. To me that was all I need.

A drink they created. Hhmmmm yumminess !

So lazing around on the couch with their drinks and having Mandarin Oranges and watching Return of the King was OooooooooH so cool!

By the time the small "party" ended was already late and was about 9pm plus. I'm grateful to have her by my side. She gives me such strength.

Lapis Lazuri

The Pendant I gave Princess has a long history and would like to share with what I know of the stone.

Cultural and historical/mythical usage

A Mesopotamian lapis lazuli pendant circa 2900 BC.

In ancient Egypt lapis lazuli was a favorite stone for amulets and ornaments such as scarabs; it was also used by the Assyrians and Babylonians for seals. Egyptian burial sites dating before 3000 B.C. contained thousands of jewelry items, many of lapis. Powdered lapis was used by Egyptian ladies as a cosmetic eye shadow.

As inscribed in the 140th chapter of the Egyptian Book of the Dead, lapis lazuli, in the shape of an eye set in gold, was considered an amulet of great power. On the last day of the month, an offering was made before this symbolic eye, for it was believed that, on that day, the supreme being placed such an image on his head.

The ancient royal Sumerian tombs of Ur, located near the Euphrates River in lower Iraq, contained more than 6000 beautifully executed lapis lazuli statuettes of birds, deer, and rodents as well as dishes, beads, and cylinder seals. These carved artifacts undoubtedly came from material mined in Badakhshan in northern Afghanistan. The word lazuli itself originates from the Persian dialect of Badakhshan. Much Sumerian and Akkadian poetry makes reference to lapis lazuli as a gem befitting royal splendor.

In ancient times, lapis lazuli was known as sapphire, which is the name that is used today for the blue corundum variety sapphire. It appears to have been the sapphire of ancient writers because Pliny refers to sapphirus as a stone sprinkled with specks of gold. A similar reference can be found in the Hebrew Bible in Job 28:6.

The Romans believed that lapis was a powerful aphrodisiac. In the Middle Ages, it was thought to keep the limbs healthy, and free the soul from error, envy and fear.

It was once believed that lapis had medicinal properties. It was ground down, mixed with milk and applied as a dressing for boils and ulcers. Many of the blues in painting from medieval Illuminated manuscripts to Renaissance panels were derived from lapis lazuli. Ground to a powder and processed to remove impurities and isolate the component lazurite, it forms the pigment ultramarine. This clear, bright blue, which was one of the few available to painters before the 19th century, cost a princely sum.

As tempera painting was superseded by the advent of oil paint in the Renaissance, painters found that the brilliance of ultramarine was greatly diminished when it was ground in oil and this, along with its cost, led to a steady decline in usage. Since the synthetic version of ultramarine was discovered in the 19th century (along with other 19th century blues, such as cobalt blue), production and use of the natural variety has almost ceased, though several pigment companies still produce it and some painters are still attracted to its brilliance and its romantic history.

Lapis lazuli, also known as just lapis, is a stone with one of the longest traditions of being considered a gem, with a history stretching back to 7000 BC in Mehrgarh of Indian subcontinent. Deep blue in color and opaque, this gemstone was highly prized by the pharaohs of ancient Egypt, as can be seen by its prominent use in many of the treasures recovered from pharaonic tombs. It is still extremely popular today.

Lapis is a rock and not a mineral because it is made up from various other minerals. To be a true mineral it would have one constituent only.[1]

The first part of the name is the Latin lapis, meaning stone. The second part, lazuli, is the genitive form of the medieval Latin lazulum, which came from Arabic (al-)lazward, which came from Persian لاژورد lāzhward. This was originally a place-name, but soon came to mean blue because of its association with the stone.

The English word azure, the Spanish and Portuguese azul, and the Italian azzurro are cognates. Taken as a whole, lapis lazuli means "stone of azure".

17 AT LAST!!

Tue 13th February

On this day ..... Baby Princess turn 17. A year older, a year wiser, a year stronger!

This year - Princess's birthday was not much of a fanfare compared to last year. Just Jazzmann aka Purpleheart aka Max X as Princess's friends know him as, myself and Princess's BF. Table was reserved for 4 at the Royal Plaza on the Scots at the Carousel Restaurant. Table was reserved for 6.30pm.

I took half day because I had to collect a pendant I bought for Princess. I wanted to get for her something meaningful and close to my heart I actually had it ordered some weeks before the actual day. So I needed time to collect it plus me and my big idea on seeing my luck - 4D!! The queue was pretty long.

My Princess and Hotty at home, hungry and waiting for me. Cabs were hard to get. Jazzmann called up to find out where I was. There were several events that had happened over the weekend. - A relation of the Princess was ill and was admitted to hospital on the Friday before this date. On the 13th itself ANOTHER of Princess's relation passed away at the young age of 30!!

If Jazzmann had the money he would have gone to Malaysia to visit the family. Even though it's from his past life. Close relations on all sides have always been maintained.

By the time I reached Woodlands - I had to prepare the card. It was hard without the Princess opening my door to see what's going on. But Mr Hotty was good at doing things discreetly!! You THE MAN SAN! When we moved out from there - we were already late. Jazzman was right - AS USUAL!!

Since I've never been there I was taken aback by the new setting. The ambience was superb, the buffet layout was simply mouth watering. We enjoyed our meal tremendously going back and forth. When we were trying out the desert I told the head waiter that he can bring the cake out which I had ordered it before hand.

Chocolate dip anyone??

The staff sang a Birthday song just for the Birthday Girl and presented her with flowers which Jazzmann bought it. In actual fact one bouquet for the Princess and one for me. He was so sweet! How I love him so :) just for that special thought.

Finally I gave Princess my gift - a Lapis Lazuli pendant. Her birth stone - earth born in the month of the wood. I'm happy that she liked it.

The story to the pendant .... hmmm. I think I'll keep that for myself!

Hotty manage to record down from Princess's Cybershot handphone some activites that had happened on that day. I tried to attach it - but not able to. All I could attach is this photo of us below.

The day ended when we got back home trying to look for vases for the flowers. Placing our bears at the head of our beds. Soaking Princess's white dress as we brought back the cake since we were all far to full to tuck in anyting in our belly.